San Francisco, California: May 3, 2001
Tridandisvami Sri Srimad Bhaktivedanta Narayana Maharaja
I have come for this purpose. My main objective is to
increase the devotees' faith and to inspire them in his teachings.
My mood is this. My objective is this - to help the devotees as he ordered
me to do so in his last days. I want to inspire them again. A question is raised, and intelligent devotees should
think this over. Why did so many devotees leave Srila Swami Maharaja's
line? Why did they become weak? They took harinama initiation and diksa
initiation, they rendered services to their gurudeva, they remained with him in
the brahmacarya asrama, and some even took sannyasa, the renounced
order. They were serving in many ways, distributing thousands of books and
becoming the number one or number two distributors in the whole world. They were
also helping so much in the gurukulas, opening many temples in different
parts of the world, and bringing great amounts of money. Either by hook, or by
crook, they brought it.
Why did most of them become weak and leave? Why was it
so? Why did they enter family life? Almost all of the brahmacaris who
were engaged in temple worship entered married life and gave up Krsna
Consciousness. They returned to material life, and some of them even became opposed
to the line of bhakti. Why is this? Why did this happen? We must
think this over. I know that most of the senior disciples of your
Prabhupada, my siksa-guru, were brahmacaris. When they were with their guru they
were very energetic, and they were giving their entire energy to serve him.
Why did they become weak? Even those who took the sannyasa order have
left. Why? We should try to understand why, and in the future we should be very
careful. This is the most important thing to think over. So many senior
Vaisnavas who have left the bhakti line are now present here in this
In this connection I want to tell you something. When
we plant a seed of any big tree, like a mango seed or other type of seed,
first we should give it water. We must water it properly and protect it so
that grazing animals cannot eat it. Even when it has grown somewhat, still
we give proper water and proper care. Then, when the roots go deep and
begin to take water from the earth, there is no longer a need to give so much
water. At that time, however, we will have to make a fence to protect the
plant. Otherwise, it can still be destroyed by animals. Even a mad elephant
That mad elephant represents offenses, and the fence
represents the association of pure devotees. We must associate with
gurudeva, and with the high class of devotees who have been taking water from
the ground and who are self-supported. They are now so big that no
elephant can do any damage to them. By associating with them, first nistha,
steadiness in bhakti, will come, and after nistha, ruci will come. Ruci means
taste. In what? In chanting and hearing hari-katha. The taste will come
for hearing hari-katha - so much taste that if one hears that any high class
of Vaisnava is speaking anywhere, that person will come from a
thousand miles away, giving up all his other jobs, duties and activities, because
he will want to be in such company.
There is a stage in which you have already taken
harinama and diksa, you are chanting somewhat, you have given up your worldly
life, and you are helping with all the projects of your gurudeva. Anarthas have
not yet gone, however, and taste has not yet come. This stage is very
critical; very, very critical. If you are not very careful in fencing and
watering at this time, your bhakti can be uprooted or it will be very
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu's personal servant, Kala
Krsnadasa, went with Him to South India for about four months. He did not have a
taste for chanting, remembering, or hearing hari-katha, but he was helping
Mahaprabhu. He was very lucky, but he had no taste. What became of him?
He was attracted by the bhattatharis, gypsy girls, who were so beautiful that
in a moment he gave up Caitanya Mahaprabhu, the Supreme Personality of
Godhead Krsna Himself.
Mahaprabhu was chanting Hare Krsna Hare Krsna in all
the temples there, making everyone Vaisnavas, but what became of His
servant? This fellow had no taste. He had never said to Mahaprabhu, "O, I want
to hear hari-katha." He never questioned Him and he never heard His
teachings. On the other hand, what did Raghunatha dasa Gosvami
do? From the very beginning he was in the association of Srila Haridasa
Thakura and his gurudeva, Yadunandana Acarya. Restless, he quickly
came to Puri to be in the assembly of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu and His
associates. Mahaprabhu became very happy to see him and said, "Oh, you have come out
from the ditch of stool. Very good." Mahaprabhu then placed Raghunatha
dasa Gosvami in the hands of Srila Svarupa Damodara and told him, "From
today you belong to Svarupa Damodara. You can know more by hearing from
him than from Me. Treat him like your teacher, your siksa-guru."
Raghunatha dasa gave up all worldly attachments and
requirements and totally surrendered unto the lotus feet of Svarupa Damodara.
He was always hearing from him and he noted everything down in his diary and
in his heart also. He wanted to hear more and more from Caitanya Mahaprabhu,
from Srila Rupa Gosvami, Srila Sanatana Gosvami, Sri Svarupa Damodara,
Sri Raya Ramananda, and all other associates. He was hearing them very
patiently, recording everything in his heart and totally following
them. What became of Raghunatha dasa Gosvami? After the
disappearance of Caitanya Mahaprabhu, Svarupa Damodara and Gadadhara Pandita, he
could not tolerate their separation. He at once left that place and he
came to Vrndavana to die.
Weeping, and weeping he thought, "I cannot tolerate
the separation from my gurudeva, all the Vaisnavas, and Caitanya Mahaprabhu.
They have left me and I am now alone." He came to Vrndavana to give up his
life by jumping in the Yamuna or by jumping from Govardhana, but he was now
in the association of Rupa Gosvami, Sanatana Gosvami, and all the Gosvamis.
He stayed on the bank of Radha-kunda twenty-four hours a day. What was he
sankhya-purvaka- nama-gana- natibhih
nidrahara-viharakadi-vijitau catyanta-dinau ca yau
vande rupa sanatana raghu-yugau sri jiva gopalakau
["I worship the Six Gosvamis, who passed all their
time in chanting the holy names, singing songs, and offering dandavat pranama,
thereby humbly fulfilling their vow to complete a fixed number daily.
In this way they utilized their valuable lives and conquered over
eating and sleeping. Always meek and humble and absorbed in the highest bliss,
they were enchanted by remembering Sri Sri Radha-Krsna's sweet qualities."
Raghunatha dasa was following these principles. You
can see on one hand Kala Krsnadasa, and on the other hand Raghunatha dasa
Gosvami. Mahaprabhu also rejected one of His very high class of
devotees, Chota Haridasa. Chota Haridasa was always with Caitanya
Mahaprabhu, but Mahaprabhu saw that he had some connection with a lady
- Sikhimahiti's sister, Madhavi devi. Although she was very old, Chota
Haridas used to think, "Oh, she is my dharma ma, my religious mother,
my new mother." He had given up his own mother, father, and everyone
else, and now he was making a relationship with her. He thought, "Oh, she
is my mother." This is a very bad thing. Don't make anyone your religious
sister, mother, brother, or father. Don't. Your guru is your mother and father
- he is everything.
Why do you need these new relationships? You will be
destroyed. Always be careful about this. We should try to do as Raghunatha dasa Gosvami did. We
should try to understand Sri Sukadeva Gosvami. Though He was a
nirvisesavadi, absorbed in the feature of the Supreme Truth that has no variety
or characteristics, in the association of his father, Dvaipayana Vyasadeva,
he became attracted to Sri Krsna. Vyasa was a very elevated devotee, and he
was like Narayana. Narayana had invested His bhakti-sakti in him. He was
therefore like Narayana, but he was not Narayana. He was a
saktyavesa-avatara of Narayana. How qualified Vyasadeva was! He divided the Veda into
four. He wrote Brahma Sutra and all the Puranas, and still he was not
satisfied. By the mercy of Srila Narada Rsi, his gurudeva, he arose from his
depression and Srimad Bhagavatam entered his heart. Srimad Bhagavatam is
transcendental. and Bhagavad-gita is transcendental. They are not like
ordinary books which, if you put them in a fire they will be burned. The Gita
cannot be destroyed, but sometimes the teachings are covered and sometimes
they are manifest.
These teachings are sabda-brahma, transcendental
sound, coming from Krsna, God Himself. They are the vani, the words of Krsna.
Sri Vyasadeva taught the entire Srimad Bhagavatam to Sukadeva Gosvami who, in
the assembly of Srila Pariksit Maharaja, repeated it. All those who heard
his recitation became high-class devotees.
So this stage is very critical. When a devotee has
left his wealth, reputation, his wife, children, his position and so
on, but he has no taste - it is a very critical time. At this stage you should
not give up the association of high-class devotees. If you always try
to be far away from high-class association, you will become very weak, and
after some time maya will come and attract you.
This was the case after Srila Swami Maharaja left this
world and joined his Prabhu in conjugal service. The devotees became very
weak, and they could not understand what they should do. There were not so
many advanced devotees to save them, to tell them hari-katha, and therefore
they became weaker and weaker and weaker. They began to think, "What will
happen in the future?" This was a problem for them. They thought, "Previously
we were in the institution of Krsna Consciousness. What will be our
future?" They had no faith in Krsna, no saranagati, surrender, and thus
they became weaker and weaker and left everything.
They began to depend on wealth - how to collect money
and how to be materially happy. They were very intelligent in this,
because they had previously served their gurudeva in that way. By that,
they have now become so wealthy. They are thinking, "We are doing very
well", but we are thinking they are not doing well. Of what use is all this
wealth if krsna-bhakti is not there? If krsna-bhakti is there, and nothing else
is there, it is very good. Even to be poor, to somehow maintain our life,
is very good - if bhakti is there.
Now we are in the iron-age of computers and all other
technologies, and it is flourishing. We are discovering so many ways in
which to be happy - but no one is happy. Only two kinds of persons can think
themselves happy. One kind consists of those who really have some taste in
Krsna's name and hearing hari-katha. Those persons can be somewhat
happy, and the other kind consists only of mad persons. These mad persons are
taking many drugs and falling down in a drain, and dogs come and lick their
faces. They are thinking, "We are the monarch of all. We are very
happy." Only these two can be happy. There is no third kind of person.
We should be very careful about this. One day, very
soon, old age will be coming - running, running. Now you are beautiful, but
one day your faces will dry. So many problems will come very quickly, and
at the time of death you will not be able to take anything you are now
collecting. Remember all these things. Again you should be very
inspired and try to chant more. If you are chanting and remembering the
pastimes of Krsna, you should have strong faith in the words of Caitanya
sarvatma-snapanam param vijayate
["Let there be all victory for the chanting of the
holy name of Lord Krsna, which can cleanse the mirror of the heart and stop the
miseries of the blazing fire of material existence. That chanting is
the waxing moon that spreads the white lotus of good fortune for all living
entities. It is the life and soul of all education. The chanting of the
holy name of Krsna expands the blissful ocean of transcendental life. It
gives a cooling effect to everyone and enables one to taste full nectar at
every step." (Antya-lila 20.12)]
You have forgotten this, and therefore you should
again hear about it. We have so much faith in this. Only by this can you be
happy. Otherwise, you can never, never, never be happy. You should know that
Krsna is the Supreme Personality of Godhead. He is the Supreme Lord. He is
very powerful - very, very powerful. Even His manifestations can create
thousands and thousands of universes in a second. They can then destroy them, and
again they can create them. At the same time, Krsna is very merciful, He is
very sweet, He is very beautiful, and He is the abode of all good qualities.
In kali-yuga, all His qualities, all His power, all His mercy - He has
invested in these sixteen names. All the names are Radha and Krsna Themselves.
These names are very powerful - more than Radha and Krsna Themselves. By
chanting you can fulfill all your desires. If you can see Radha-Krsna,
automatically all your desires will be fulfilled. You should know, however, that
Radha and Krsna will not come - we cannot take Their darsana - without the help
and mercy of name. These names are more powerful than Radha and Krsna.
Krsna has made it so, but we don't have so much faith. Srila Haridasa
Thakura has faith, Sri Prahlada Maharaja has faith, and all our acaryas, from
top to bottom, have faith. Srila Swami Maharaja and my Gurudeva also have
faith. We also have faith, and therefore we don't want any worldly things.
We only want to have some love and affection in chanting the holy name. If
you follow this principle, you will not fall down.
At times you do not do kirtana, what to speak of
sankirtana, and your heart becomes like the books kept in a glass almirah
bookcase. We have kept some books in this almirah which is covered by very fine
glass. You can see what books are there and you can read the names, but you
cannot touch them because they are under lock and key. If one is in high
association, chanting with relation and giving up all of their
anyabhilasa, material desires, karma, jnana, yoga, tapasya, and attachment
to worldly things, what becomes of him? The mirror of his heart becomes clear,
even if it is locked.
Sripad Aranya Maharaja: "When the conditioned soul,
being in this world, begins his process of nama-sankirtana and his heart
Srila Narayana Maharaja: You can ask the question to
Aranya Maharaja, "You are telling this to us, but have you first realized
it? We have been chanting the name for as long as twenty years with
Prabhupada, and we have heard so many things. You are like a very young boy,
and yet you are teaching us? Have you realized something of what you
are speaking? Have you realized ceto-darpana-marjanam
bhava-maha-davagni-nirvapanam?" I can tell you that I have some realization - yes.
Srila Swami Maharaja has realization and I also have some realization. You can
therefore believe in me and chant the name.
You fell down because you have not chanted and heard
in the real process, as we are doing. We are in the real process. From the
beginning of my life, and when I was a child, I used to chant, "Rama Rama. Hare
Krsna Hare Krsna, Krsna Krsna, Hare Hare." I don't know from where it
came. I then came in the association of my Gurudeva when I was about
twenty-four or twenty-five years of age, and I was so attracted!
At that time I had a very good job as an officer. I
had not been initiated, but I was chanting one lakh of names - 64 rounds -
without any fail, daily. You cannot imagine. Very soon I came in the
association of my Gurudeva. In 1946 I was initiated and had the association of Srila
Bhaktivedanta Swami Maharaja, your Gurudeva, Pujyapada Sridhara Maharaja,
Pujyapada Srauti Maharaja, Pujyapada Vaikhanas Maharaja, Pujyapada Nemi
Maharaja, and Srila Bhakti Pramoda Puri Maharaja. In due process I used to
chant and hear hari-katha and serve them. Quickly, all kinds of bhava-maha-davagni-nirvapanam, all kinds of miseries
felt in worldly life - disappeared.
I am very happy now. I have thousands and thousands of
children, but I am not attached. I only want their welfare. I want that
they should be devotees. Srila Svami Maharaja was like this, as was
my Gurudeva, and I am following their line. I may therefore tell you that I have realized that all
my problems have gone. Bhava-maha-davagni nirvapanam. Also, sreya
kairava-candrika. This has also come. You can realize this if you can follow your
Gurudeva. You can also follow me, because he Srila Swami Maharaja has
told me, "You should help my devotees." Sreyah-kairava-candrika-vitaranam. All the good
qualities possessed by high-class devotees will manifest in that devotee who
follows. Bhakti has six leaves or six symptoms. If you are really chanting
under the guidance of a bona fide guru, with a sense of a relationship
with Krsna and giving up all worldly desires, then all kinds of bad things will
easily disappear. All kinds of attachments will disappear at once, very
quickly. No attachment for maya will remain if you are chanting the names,
hearing hari-katha, and serving gurudeva. However, if so many worldly desires
are there, and so much lust is there - what is the meaning? You are not
following the process in a good way. There is a loophole. You should try to
repair it; otherwise all the water of bhakti will drain out.
We read Srimad Bhagavatam so many times, and we become
teacher and tell others about it. In India there are so many
professional Bhagavatam recitors. When such recitors explain Srimad
Bhagavatam, all are attracted and charmed, and all may weep. Their own eyes,
however, are always on money.
They are always wondering how much money is coming.
Such professional recitors are not pure devotees, and they are not even
devotees. They may be Sankara mayavadis. All their offenses and attachments
will remain. None will go.
The first symptom of bhakti is that all your worldly
attachments will go. If they are not going, you can know that there is a
loophole, and you should try to repair it very carefully. If you do not do
this, you will go down and you are bound to be weak. We are seeing that seniors
are very weak. They cannot give up worldly attachments. Therefore, this
should come first.
Second, all kinds of good qualities will come. We
should be very careful to see that this is developing. Then, vidya-vadhu-jivanam. What is
vidya-vadhu-jivanam? Seven symptoms are the results of taking harinama. If they are not
coming, you should be very careful to search where your loopholes are - and try
to repair them.
Otherwise, you cannot realize anything:
trnad api sunicena
taror api sahisnuna
kirtaniyah sada harih
["One can chant the holy name of the Lord in a humble
state of mind, thinking himself lower than the straw in the street.
One should be more tolerant than the tree, devoid of all sense of false
prestige and ready to offer all respect to others. In such a state of mind
one can chant the holy name of the Lord constantly." (Siksastaka 3)]
These four qualities will come. If they are not
present, there is no pure name. So try to first be like this.
What is vidya? You should know that vidya is Srimati
Radhika Herself. Her activities of love and affection can control Krsna.
She is actually transcendental vidya - learning. What is this
learning? How to serve Krsna and Radhika, and especially Krsna. Krsna is the
Supreme Personality of Godhead.
Srimati Radhika's love goes up to sneha, mana,
pranaya, raga, anuraga, bhava, mahabhava, modana, and madana. Krsna does not
have all these qualities. He has no madana. Srimati Radhika has
madana, and therefore She is really vidya - paravidya. Svarupa-sakti,
hladini-sakti, is Radhika, and She is called vadhu. Vadhu means beloved. If you are
chanting the name in the correct process, then, after some days, in the
fifth stage, you will realize vidya vadhu-jivanam. You will realize that
this name is the most beloved, the life and soul, of Radhika. That is
The sixth stage is anandambuddhi vardhanam. You should
realize these things and from today begin chanting the holy name like this.
You will then very soon be able to realize what Caitanya Mahaprabhu has
Sripad Aranya Maharaja: At this time powerful bhakti
will come in the heart and one will realize practically how this nama is
Krsna Himself and is the life and soul of Srimati Radhika. Those who have
eligibility and potential within their hearts can realize, "I am a palya dasi, a
maidservant of Srimati Radhika." What, then, will be the result as
they go on chanting?
Mahaprabhu explains this here: anandambuddhi
vardhanam, an ever-increasing ocean of bliss.
Srila Narayana Maharaja: At this stage Caitanya
Mahaprabhu used to go to the temple of Jagannatha, but He never saw Jagannatha,
Baladeva, and Subhadra. What did He see? Vrajendra-nandana Syamasundara.
Sometimes, when He was in His external consciousness, He could see Jagannatha,
Baladeva, and Subhadra.
Usually, however, He used to see only
Vrajendra-nandana Syamasundara with a flute in His hand. Vrajendra-nandana vina pate mora.
"My heart is going to break. Where is Krsna? Where is Krsna?" When
Mahaprabhu was going to Vrndavana through the dense Jarikhanda forest, so many
elephants, tigers, bears, snakes, and other very furious animals were
there. Many elephants came when Mahaprabhu was taking bath, and a very big
miracle occurred. Mahaprabhu took some water and sprinkled it on them,
at which time all the mad elephants raised their trunks and went down on
their knees and began to chant, "Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare,
Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare."
This is the case at that stage. Mahaprabhu did not
know who He was. He was only searching for Krsna, "O Krsna, where are You,
where are You? My beloved Krsna, where are You?" When this stage manifests, even
a little bit, your life is successful. Try to search for this Krsna - Sri
Nandanandana with Srimati Radhika - in this process. Very soon you will
realize what you would not realize up to the age of sixty or seventy.
You will realize all these things very soon.
Sripad Aranya Maharaja: Here the devotee is chanting
in ecstatic bliss:
anandambuddhi vardhanam prati-padam. There is
blissfulness at pratipadam, every step, and this has a very deep meaning.
Pratipadam means that this Hare Krsna maha-mantra has eight sections, and in
these eight sections all the nitya-lila of Radha-Krsna are present. The first
Hare Krsna is nisyanta-lila, pre-dawn pastimes, the next Hare Krsna
is morning pastimes, and then midday pastimes, afternoon pastimes, and so
on. When the devotee is chanting in the stage of anandambuddhi vardanam
pratipardam, he sees Radha and Krsna in every letter and syllable of the
Srila Narayana Maharaja: How will you realize all
this? Caitanya Mahaprabhu Himself is the example. When He was in Kasi, Varanasi,
He met with Prakasananda Sarasvati. Prakasananda asked, "You are
in a good disciplic line. Being a sannyasi, in the renounced order, why
are You chanting, dancing and singing? We don't do this. Why are You
Mahaprabhu said, "I am very foolish. My Gurudeva told
Me, 'You are not qualified to study Vedanta. You should only remember
harer nama harer nama
harer namaiva kevalam
kalau nasty eva nasty eva
nasty eva gatir anyatha
["In this age of quarrel and hypocrisy the only means
of deliverance is chanting the holy name of the Lord. There is no other
way. There is no other way. There is no other way." (Adi 17.21)]
"'Only by chanting the name, chanting the name, and
chanting the name. There is no other process. You can never be happy by
any other process.'" Mahaprabhu continued, "My Gurudeva gave Me the holy
name, Hare Krsna Hare Krsna, and he also gave Me the krsna-mantra. I began
to chant these mantras, and very quickly I became mad - totally mad.
I could not understand why was I becoming so mad.
"I saw a boy. These names became like a very beautiful
teenaged syama-colored boy. I saw that He was playing on a
flute and smiling towards Me with side-long glances. At once I was charmed. I
wanted to follow Him. I quickly ran toward Him, but He was moving backwards.
Oh, I ran very fast, but He quickly moved here and there and I could not
touch Him. When I came very near, just about to catch Him, He at once
disappeared. I then became mad and fell down, rolling on the earth and crying,
'Where is My Krsna, where is My Krsna?'
"I don't know how My heart realized all these things.
When I chant the name, I see My beloved Krsna and I cannot check Myself.
Sometimes I chant and sing, sometimes dance, and sometimes roll down on the
earth and cry, 'Alas, Krsna! Alas, Krsna! Where are You?' I went to My
Gurudeva and told him, 'O Gurudeva, what kind of mantra have you given that has
made Me so mad?' The whole world is telling Me that I am mad, and I also
realize that I have become mad, mad, and mad. Why did you give Me this
"Gurudeva then at once embraced Me and said, 'Your
life is successful. This is the reality of chanting harinama. I am so proud to
have You as a disciple.'" We should try to be a disciple like this, so that your
guru will have great pride in you. If you do not this, you are going to
hell and you are will be very weak. Then, instead of being proud, he will be
very worried for you. Perhaps he will have to come again for you. Or, he
will have to send any of his representatives and say, "Go and help him." He
will be very worried.
Caitanya Mahaprabhu and His Rupa Gosvami and
Raghunatha dasa Gosvami were always swimming in the waves of anandambuddi vardanam,
the ever-increasing, endless ocean of love and affection. In separation from Krsna, Caitanya Mahaprabhu became
totally mad and jumped in the sea. He was there throughout the night, and,
due to all His joints being separated by eight inches, He became very long.
He was like a dead person, but He was not dead. Svarupa Damodara went
with his colleagues to search for him, and they finally discovered Him on the
seashore. Surrounding Him, they began to perform sankirtana. Gradually
Caitanya Mahaprabhu became conscious and began to dance and chant, "Hari bol!
Hari Bol!" How will you realize these stages? The wonderful,
powerful devotees have written about them in their books. Anandambuddhi
vardanam. You cannot realize this now. Raghunatha dasa Gosvami was at the
bank of Radha kunda.
What was he doing? Always tears, always tears. You
cannot imagine this at present. You can imagine it if you are chanting in the
real process. Otherwise it will never, never be possible.
Sripad Aranya Maharaja: Purnamrtasvadanam. The devotee
tastes complete nectar. Krsna has four qualities that are not present
in any other incarnation of the Lord. They are His rupa-madhuri -
the sweetness of His form; venu-madhuri - the sweetness of His flute
playing; lila-madhuri - the sweetness of His pastimes; and prema-madhuri - the
sweetness of the love He shares with His devotees. These are four kinds of
sweetness and they can be tasted at every step. Really, this is nectar, and this
can be tasted through the chanting of harinama when all the pastimes are
coming in the heart.
Srila Narayana Maharaja: There was once a marriage
party. The wedding was fixed to take place the next day at the bank of the
Ganges. The family decided that the party should go to the house of the
bride by boat. They hired a boatman, and so many family members of the
bridegroom got into the boat. They took with them wine, a prostitute to sing
and dance, and also marijuana. They then went inside the boat, downstairs,
and they began to enjoy. The head of the groom's family gave money to
the boatman and told him that he should reach the place of marriage by the next
morning - otherwise the marriage could not take place. The auspicious time
was the next morning at 4:00 am. The boatman told him that he should also
give him some money for marijuana and other drugs.
Everyone on the boat was enjoying, and at the same
time the boatman's five, six, or eight rowers were rowing - and perspiring. At
four o'clock the next morning the father of the family came out to the deck
of the boat to see if they had reached their destination. He looked in
wonder when he saw that they were in the same place. The boat had not moved
one inch. He became very angry at them and said, "We are in the our own
village. The same coconut palms are here, our houses are here, and the same
river bank is here." He called out, "I gave you so much money. I gave you what
you wanted; so why is our boat still here? How is this possible? We have
missed the auspicious time for the marriage."
The boatman came forward and told him, "O master, you
have given us all these things and we have been rowing for the whole
night, without taking any rest. We were rowing with great effort, and you can
see that we have not rested." When they looked around, they could see what
was wrong. The anchor was down, and it had been going deeper into the mud as
they were rowing. The boat had only been rocking back and forth all
night. In the same way, if you are doing so much chanting,
and at the same time taking marijuana and other drugs, and at the same time
being absorbed in your body, wife, sister, and so on, it will be like
rowing your boat with the anchor down. You will not be able to go forward.
If anyone has attraction to worldly things, he cannot advance.
Caitanya Mahaprabhu therefore says:
namnam akari bahudha nija-sarva-saktis
tatrarpita niyamitah smarane na kalah
etadrsi tava krpa bhagavan mamapi
durdaivam idrsam ihajani nanuragah
["My Lord, O Supreme Personality of Godhead, in Your
holy name there is all good fortune for the living entity, and therefore You
have many names, such as Krsna and Govinda, by which You expand Yourself.
You have invested all Your potencies in those names, and there are no hard
and fast rules for remembering them. My dear Lord, although You bestow
such mercy upon the fallen, conditioned souls by liberally teaching Your
holy names, I am so unfortunate that I commit offenses while chanting the
holy name, and therefore I do not achieve attachment for chanting."
First of all you should give up your bad
asat-sanga-tyaga, ei vaisnava-acara
stri-sangi eka asadhu, krsnabhakta ara
["A Vaisnava should always avoid the association of
ordinary people. Common people are very much materially attached, especially
to women. Vaisnavas should also avoid the company of those who are not
devotees of Lord Krsna." (Madhya 22.88-90)]
What is the meaning of this sloka? If you are lusty,
if you are weak, and if you have so many unwanted habits - no harm. You should
be sincere. What you are, you are. Don't hide anything. There is one thing,
however. You should give up the association of mayavadis. Mayavadi association is like a very dangerous,
ferocious tigress. Raghunatha das Gosvami and Mahaprabhu have told us,
and Srimad Bhagavatam has also told us - if you want to be happy and if you
want to be a devotee, never associate with persons who are mayavadis No harm
if you are lusty. Lust may go away and all anarthas may also go away,
but if you are being devoured by this ferocious tigress of mayavadi sanga,
no one can help you. Even Krsna will not be able to help you, and no
devotee will be able to help you. You should therefore very carefully cut all
connections with those who are mayavadis.
Even if those mayavadis are friends and relatives,
they should be given up quickly for your whole life. Secondly, the association
of those who are attached to worldly lust, and those who are the
friends of lusty persons, should also be abandoned. It is better to die in a burning fire. If we embrace a
fire, there is relatively no harm in that. It is even better to enter
the mouths of crocodiles and tigers than to associate with these two
types of persons, because that suffering is only for this life. In the
next life we can again be okay. For one who is associating with mayavadis -
his devotion will go away for thousands of lives, or forever.
My dear friends, my dear brothers and sisters: make up
your minds If you are associating with any friends who are mayavadis,
promise that "I will not continue to do this." I am telling you this to save
you; otherwise you will go to hell. Not only will you go to hell, but your
life will be ruined forever and ever. Even in the future you will not be
able to come in this line. So my dear friends, you should remember these
things. Don't mix with mayavadis. If they come to you, you should do pranama
to them with folded palms and say to them, "O prabhu, please remain far
Devotee: Maharaja, you have inspired fear in my heart.
How do I recognize a mayavadi?
Srila Narayana Maharaja: You will know. He will tell
you, "There is no God", or "God has no shape. I am God, and you, yourself, are
God. Aham brahmasmi. Sarvam kalvidam brahma." Such a person is not chanting
and remembering, and he is not coming to associate with any high-class
devotee. You will recognize him very easily.