May 5, 2004: North Shore, Hawaii
Tridandisvami Sri Srimad Bhaktivedanta Narayana Maharaja
[Srila Prabhupada's senior
disciples, Nrihari dasa and his good wife Bhavatarini dasi are very
expert at singing devotional songs in Western melodies, in the
English language and accompanied by guitars; and their songs
enchant large audiences. They visited Srila Narayana Maharaja at his
residence in Oahu, Hawaii in early May. On Srila Maharaja's
request they sang several beautiful songs for in English,
including the last verse of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu's Sri
Siksastakam. After the singing of Sri Siksastakam was completed
Srila Maharaja commented on it, and they were so kind as to share
with us the following transcription of his conversation with
[Srila Narayana Maharaja:] "Make Me Happy,
Make Me Sad." What is the meaning of this song? This is the view
of Srimati Radhika. This is Her mood. "Make me happy, make me sad;
break my heart, make me glad I love you Krsna."
aslisya va pada-ratam pinastu mam
adarsanan marma-hatam karotu
yatha tatha va vidadhatu lampato
sa eva naparah
["Let Krsna tightly embrace this
maidservant who has fallen at His lotus feet, or let Him trample
Me or break My heart by never being visible to Me. He is a
debauchee, after all, and can do whatever He likes, but He is
still no one other than the worshipable Lord of My heart." (Sri
Siksastakam, verse 8)]
This is the eighth sloka of Sri
Siksastakam. You have translated the essence as, "Make me happy,
make me sad . . ." So why have you then prayed to Srila Prabhupada
at the end of the song, "Let me serve you, Prabhupada, eternally?
You sang, I didn't know that Krsna was God until I met you, Srila
Prabhupada. Let me serve you, Prabhupada, eternally," and then you
added the refrain, "Make me happy, make me sad
" It seems that there
is some improper mixing there. Who is praying? Are you praying? Or
is Srimati Radhika praying?
[Bhavatarini dasi:] At
the end I am praying to Prabhupada.
Maharaja:] What is your prayer?
"Prabhupada, whether you make me happy or sad, I love you."
[Srila Narayana Maharaja:] No. This is wrong. The words or
sentiments "I love you" for Gurudeva is not good. We may pray, "I
want to serve you" not "I love you." The prayer should not be
like that. Perhaps you will have to correct it. This cannot be
sung in the assembly of knowledgeable devotees. Make it for Krsna
as told by Srimati Radhika. Then, in the last line you can pray,
"Prabhupada, when I will realize this reality the mood of
Srimati Radhika, which is more than mahabhava and which is known as
madanakya-bhava. When I will realize all this? Please be merciful
to me." You can pray in this way.
Editorial Advisors: Pujyapada Madhava Maharaja and Sripad
Transcriber: Janaki dasi
Typist: Anita dasi