What To Pray For
Lord Krsna became pleased when He heard Sri Damodarastakam the
prayer of Satyavrata Muni and told him, "You may ask for any
Satyavrata Muni replied, "You are the king of all gods and
demigods. You have the power to give any benediction You like. But
I dont desire any benediction of this world, within or outside
the entire universe, or in Siva-loka. I dont want mukti. I dont
even want Vaikuntha-bhakti, or Dvarakadisa-bhakti like that of
Rukmini, Satyabhama or Uddhava, nor do I desire bhakti like that
of Kubja or any others in Mathura. My only desire is that I see
Your boyhood pastimes Your Damodara-lila where You are
controlled by Srimati Yasoda, with tears coming from Your eyes
like the flow of the Ganga and Yamuna. I want to see You when You
are bitterly weeping, being fearful of Your mother. I want that
Your very special, sweet face and form, being bound by Yasoda,
should come into my heart. Except for this, I do not want
anything. Please manifest that very form in my heart; I will never
want anything else."
How can we please Krsna when we sing His glories? There are so
many levels of glorifying Him. We glorify Him when we pray to Him,
You lifted the Earth, or You killed Hiranyakasipu. By relating
these glories He will be happy, but He will be happier when we
say, You are the beloved of Rukmini or You have saved the
Pandavas. We glorify Him when we say, You gave up Your promise,
in order to protect the promise of Grandfather Bhisma, or You
showed great opulence to Your devotee Arjuna. He will be so
satisfied when He hears us relate these pastimes. However, He will
be most satisfied when we tell Him, Oh, I saw You in the groves
of Govardhana , massaging the lotus feet of Srimati Radhika, and
She was not accepting You. You placed Your flute at Her lotus
feet, and Your head there also. You promised Her: I will never
again commit any offence. I will not go to anyone else. I am
Yours, I am Yours!
Krsna will then ask you, "Oh, what do You want? Without
hesitating, He will give Himself.
varam deva! moksam na moksavadhim va
na canyam vrne ham varesad apiha
idam te vapur natha! gopala-balam
sada me manasy avirastam kim anyaih (4)
["O Deva! Although You are capable of granting any boon, I do not
pray to You for liberation, eternal life in Vaikuntha, or for any
other benediction which may be obtained by executing the nine
processes of bhakti. O Lord! May Your form as a cowherd boy
forever remain manifest in my heart. Besides this what is the use
of any other benediction?"]
Satyavrata Muni had glorified Krsna by sp eaking of all His
pastimes in Gokula, which are like an ocean of rasa. Krsna would
sink in that ocean, and He would make all the Vrajavasis sink in
it. He became very pleased with Satyavrata Munis prayers, and He
told Satyavrata Muni that He wanted to give him any benediction he
Krsna asked him, "Do you want worldly happiness? Is there any
worldly thing you require?
No Prabhu, I dont want that.
Do you wish to marry a very beautiful princess?"
Satyavrata Muni replied, "I don't want dharma, artha or kama
(mundane religion, economic development or sense gratification)
I dont want anything from this world."
Krsna then said, "I will give you moksa (liberation). This is very
rare and very difficult to attain. Sankaracarya performed
austerities for thousands of years, uttering aham brahmasmi, aham
brahmasmi; tat tvam asi, tat tvam asi."
Satyavarata Muni replied, "I offer my obeisances to moksa. If
anyone wants it, that is alright, but I don't like it." The word "moksa-vadhim"
in this fourth verse of Sri Damodarastakam means mukti up to the
last stage. Moksa is of five kinds: salokya attaining a planet
on which Lord Narayana lives; samipya to be near Narayana;
sarupya to have a form similar to that of four-armed Lord
Narayana; sarsti having the same opulence as Narayana; and
lastly, sayujya to merge into Narayana.
A lower class Vaisnava may want four of the five kinds of mukti:
samipya, salokya, sarupya and sarsti, but he will never desire
sayujya under any condition.
Why not? In sayujya mukti a man becomes like a zero, like a stone,
like dry wood. That person has no identity; no sense of I am.
Our Guru Maharaja, Srila Bhakti Prajnana Kesavaja Gosvami
Maharaja, ex plained to us that although it is advertised as
blissful, sayujya-mukti is not blissful at all. It is like being
stool; there is no difference at all between sayujya-mukti and
stool. Sayujya is opposed to bhakti, and therefore even the lowest
class of devotee doesn't desire it.
There are two kinds of mukti: sukha aisvarya-uttara and
prema-seva-uttara. In the first kind, the jiva thinks that he will
personally be happy with the four muktis, and he really becomes
so. His desire is for his happiness as well as for the service of
Narayana, but it is more so for his own happiness. It is for that
reason he desires to live with Narayana, to have a form like His
and to have opulence like His. This mukti may be experienced in
Dhruva-loka, which is within this universe.
The second kind of mukti is experienced in Vaikuntha. Jaya and
Vijaya had the four muktis: they lived in the planet of Narayana,
they had forms like Him and opulence like Him but their des ire
was not for their own happiness. They desired to serve Narayana in
all respects; there was no consideration for their own happiness.
Satyavrata Muni prayed with the word moksa-vadhi. He wanted
neither this world, nor moksha, nor moksa-vadi Vaikuntha. What is
the meaning of na canya vrneham? It has a very deep meaning, and
Srila Sanatana Gosvami has explained it.
When the four sages Sanatana, Sanaka, Sanandana, and Sanaka
went to Vaikuntha, the gate-keepers Jaya and Vijaya stopped them
from entering. The sages became angry and cursed Jaya and Vijaya
to take birth on the Earth as demons. They cursed Jaya and Vijaya
because they considered them to be acting like demons and there
was no use for demons in Vaikuntha.
They knew that Lord Narayana has no fear. None can kill Him or
harm Him in any way, and therefore they wanted to know why Jaya
and Vijaya were stopping them from meeting with Him. They told
those gate-keepers, "You are just like demons. There is no need
for demons in Vaikuntha; therefore you shall take birth on Earth."
Lord Narayana then removed His yogamaya potency, at which time
Jaya and Vijaya understood, "Oh! We have done wrong." They both
began to weep, and Narayana told them, "There is no anger in
Vaikuntha. The sages became angry by the influence of My yogamaya
potency. You are not at fault. Everything here is going on by My
yogamaya. There is no envy or any other bad quality in Vaikuntha,
so how could you have become envious? This incident was not caused
by anyones fault; I did it for a deep reason.
The four Kumaras then began to pray to the lotus feet of Narayana,
apologising and begging for forgiveness. After this, the Four
Kumaras became pure devotees and knew the glories of Sri Krsna's
pastimes. Srila Rupa Gosvami has glorifies them in his song "radhe,
jaya jaya madhava dayite", with the words "sanaka sanatana bharite
carite Srimati Radhika's glories are described by the Four
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Editor: Syamarani dasi
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